9 months down.


Today marks 9 months since we lost our beautiful baby girl, Lily Belle. We lost her during birth at 39 weeks due to cord prolapse. I was lucky enough to still deliver her naturally. The healing process hasn't been easy. I developed PTSD for a period of time after I lost her. I had severe flashes and nightmares. My body physically craved taking care of her for so long. To some extent it always will..


The thought of her being gone for as long as she was in my womb is hard to swallow. It feels like just yesterday but then it feels like another lifetime.. My time with her was so beautiful. We created a bond I couldn't have imagined possible from inside the womb. We communicated so easily. Especially toward the end. I knew her personality already. She was sassy and stubborn but so sweet. She was a little night owl.

I decided I'm ready to share a few very special things as a way of honoring her. First, I feel like I'm finally ready to share some photos from her birth.








The second thing I want to share is Part One of a series of time lapse videos. I do yoga and meditation during my pregnancy with her. We did this every morning. This was our little quiet time together. When I recorded them, I thought it would be fun to look back on them with her. I never imagined they would be one of the only things I have of memories with her. These have become so precious to me.


Some books that helped me with dealing with our loss:

What All Spirit Babies Want Their Mamas to Know by Kate Street

https://amzn.to/2Avv32r

Many Lives Many Masters by Dr. Brian Weiss

https://amzn.to/2K6VJ8S

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